If There's One Thing

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If there's one thing I hate, it's second guessing myself, knowing that I can do better but choose to give up out of frustration. Many say that if it's no pain, there's no gain; and I believe this is true, don't get me wrong but what I'm thinking is that is the pain worth it? Would putting myself through that be worth it or could I be doing better of my time elsewhere? Thoughts like these tend to ponder in my mind at these times of the night, wherein I am left alone with just the echo of my own ideas.

If it seems too vague, what I'm talking about is not something deep nor is it something of love. It's not about sports, as it usually is, nor family. Schoolwork, that's what eating me. I have two exams coming up in few hours, one after the other and if you have to know, I've only studied for my majors. I keep thinking there's too little time for me to get everything in my head, but the problem is, I don't start early.

If there are two things I can't stand, it's how lazy I can be and knowing that there is just one thing that kept me from what I wanted. What I make up for in perseverance in my athletic dreams I lack in academics. Sometimes I honestly think that I simply bide my time studying just waiting for the day I leave it behind. I can't seem to find the happiness in what I'm learning anymore; everything is just a blur in my mind and it all seems unimportant at the moment. Maybe my words don't make sense, maybe it's just the fact that it's 2:45am. The latter part of what I can't take is the fact that being born the way I was was what kept me from what I once dreamed of. All the nights I kept my distance, trying to be safe, turned out to be a wasted effort. As it turns out I can change who I am, who my friends are, what kind of person I want to be; however, I can't change way I was born - as that was what was getting in the way.

Hopefully parents stay out of the blogsphere and let these words flow past their minds, because I wouldn't have things any other way.

And if there's one thing I love, it's the company I keep. That's all there is to it.

Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus

-- Spoken Word Poetry http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY

There isn't much to this guy, I mean he is a nobody to me; but one thing I admire is his confidence in his faith. Religion to me was never a great a part of my life, what was was my friends, my sports and my family; and one thing remained the same - they were not Christ-centered.

Relationship > Religion

What's the use of doing anything, whether practicing our faith or simply making a choice, if we didn't believe in it? Like a chicken whose head is lost, we fall into the patterns of traditions through countless generations. The essence of what is true is enveloped by the need to check a box of a list of to do's and there seems to be no stopping it from fading into the act. Jesus. God. Sin. Those are the important things, it's not about how much we've done, it's about how much He's done for us. The death on the Cross should never be taken lightly, just imagine how much pain one person was willing to go through for someone born centuries later and bound to sin just like those before him.

One man bearing the sin of the world. Phew. I'm just glad it wasn't me; but the fact of the matter is, it was for me. I am saved, not by the things I've said or done to show how my life has turned around. I was saved by the obedience of this guy named Jesus. I was given the benefit of freedom at no cost at all (Economics majors, I know you know what I mean).

There's much to say and much to do, but if not for death and spilled blood, it would all be to no end. To quote from the video, "religion says do, Jesus says done...Salvation is freely mine, and forgiveness is my own. Not based on my merits but His obedience alone. That's why it's called grace."

Just The Best

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These are the best days... Simply spending time doing the things I love with the people I love. And, I just can't seem to get enough of them. In other words, another day out with the block. It's seems like such a long time ago since we all met, but each day is something new and there is almost never a dull moment with these people. I tell you, get a block, stick with it; you'll do wonders together!

PLUS: JIMO, WIS AND BENJ! (waley kayo pic sakin)

Expectations With Preparations

Let's there was a big game coming up, and you say that it's going to be a win for your team this time around. Well, there better be a follow-through to that. To expect to win or overcome any challenge is no piece of cake. Success requires work, one can't go without the other. Though they're always hard to meet, when it is achieved, I tell you, the reward is too great!

Being a basketball player gives you that sense of perseverance, to not settle for just being content with second place. It's the worst place to be in. But to play a good game, win or lose, gives you a satisfaction like no other. There is no head-bowing or sour-graping, only pride for knowing that that was the best you could do (the other team just had a better best than you).

You can't expect to succeed without readying yourself to face whatever it is that will lead you on your way. Expect to fail, don't be surprised that you did. Expect to win, work for it.

Big game today. 1 practice day. Hopefully, the other team had none.

And, have the right team.

To Do In Excellence

It's become a tradition, an expectation rather than one's volition to make a new year's resolution. Here's one, for my own simple satisfaction.

12 Resolutions for 2012. (Cliche, I know. But just go with it.)

1. Give more time for quality family bonding.

2. Commit to my quiet time.

3. Play better ball and exercise more. A lot more.

4. Witness something absolutely amazing!

5. Finish 12 books.

6. Download 12 albums.

7. Watch at least 12 movies.

8. Make 12 recipes.

9. Be MeCOactive.

10. Quit taking breaks.

11. Have drama. Hopefully, the good kind. ;)

12. BE NICE.

With the actualization of overcoming addiction and iteration of falling back into certain situations, I can only hope for the best resolution.

13. Spend more time with the people I love!

First

Many times over the past years are days to look back to, to learn from mistakes, to mend broken relationships and to make better people of ourselves. With the new year beckoning, wishes have been cast and prayers said; each a new hope to carry us through the these coming days.

Challenges will surely come.

People to be met.

Memories made to forever be cherished.

Heartaches hoped to be forgotten.

As for me, firsts and lasts are to be expected. Though i'm clueless as to what they are, I can't wait to find out where i'll soon find myself. 3G's for 2012: Goals, grades, and I think i'll keep the last one to myself...... For now.